Every moment of our lives we are required to make choices. These choices are sometimes done mindlessly and sometimes we mull over choices for days. We choose what time we will wake up. We choose how we will get ready for the day. We choose a school we wish to attend. We choose whom we wish to spend our lives with. Regardless of what it is, we ALWAYS have a choice.
Recently, I feel as though I haven't been making the best decisions. My original goal was to open my heart up to people and new experiences. I have been and I have been enjoying myself, but I've also found that I'm spending more time with people that I would not have normally spent time with. That is not necessarily a bad thing. The bad thing is the way that I've allowed myself to be affected by them.
There is one decision that I made that has recently effected my attitude. I have not been feeling as happy and energetic as I was before I made the decision. It's hard to believe that one choice can so greatly affect our happiness, but it can. The reason that I feel the way that I do is because I knew the right decision before I made the wrong one, but I still went against my beliefs for a moment of instant gratification.
I wasn't strong enough. I look back and keep asking myself, "Why wasn't I strong enough?" "Why didn't I make the right decision, even though I knew it?" When it comes right down to it, I understand that I can't change the past. I made a decision and I have to learn to live with that decision. I need to learn from my choice and not make that decision again.
We are all human. We are all prone to error. This is not an excuse, it is an undeniable truth. This is why forgiveness is so VERY important. We all, at various times in our lives, make a bad decision. We hurt people without intending to. The decision maker feels like crap and the person who was hurt feels slighted. Forgiveness is the only cure.
The thing is, we need to learn to forgive ourselves before we can ever learn to accept the forgiveness of others. It is a difficult task, but it can be done.
I am working on it now. It's difficult when you know that you could have made the right decision but didn't. As I said before, it is the past and I need to let it go.
Learn to accept the decisions we make.
Forgive yourself.
Forgive others.
