Selfish? Why, of Course We Are!

Thinking about ALL of the relationships that are out there, I realize one thing. The only reason we build relationships with others is for selfish reasons.

Whether it's just for the companionship or if we believe we will get something out of it. We think, "How can being in a relationship with this person benefit me?"  I don't believe this is something that we consciously think about. Well... some of us might... but it's still interesting to think about.

I don't know that this works so well with family members because we're born into that relationship. There is probably some sort of selfishness in that as well.

Think about who your friends are and what you get out of being friends with them. I'll bet you'll realize that you are being a little selfish.

Kind of makes you feel bad and thankful at the same time.

History Repeats Itself

 Events in my life have caused me to act a certain way. I have begun going out quite often. I have been making many new friends. This is what happens after every breakup I've ever been through. I realized that there is a cycle...
   - I'm sad
   - I'm angry
   - I go out to meet new people. I am more wild than my normal self. I meet someone of the opposite sex and become more fun. I have no expectations of this person and don't create any type of emotional bond with them. Somehow, I think I become more attractive to someone because I become a carefree lady.
   - I slowly become less attracted to the individual. I end up hurting them.
   - I become depressed.
   - I live in solitude.
   - I become lonely.
   - I get in a relationship.
   - I fuck it up.
   - Cycle starts again.

Is there a way to break this cycle? Does history always have to repeat itself?

At least I have finally realized that I do this to myself. I suppose the first step to breaking a cycle is to realize that there is a cycle; that there is something that needs to be changed.

What is the next step though? Where do I go from here? I am on the verge of slipping into the depression stage. I just want to crawl into a ball and hide away from life.

The more I think about it, the more I see that at any stage of this cycle could be changed. We can all change the vicious cycles of our lives if we take some time to see where we are in that cycle and do something to change it.

If I am starting to feel depressed and want to sink into solitude... I won't let myself. It's difficult, but any type of change is going to be. We just need to plow through it.

We all seek happiness. If we haven't found it yet, it's probably because we keep repeating the past.